Lately I've been thinking a lot about different characters I want to play in my lifetime, so I decided to make a list because I'm really good at making lists. I even made a list of all the things I'm good at and making lists was on my list! Anyway, dream roles were what I was talking about, so here they are: Lucy, from Jekyll and Hyde
Little Red, Into the Woods
And the Witch from Into the Woods as well
Roxie, Chicago
Jerusha Abbot, Daddy Long Legs
Brook, Legally Blonde the Musical
Or Kate (the nerd), or Margot (the really dumb one ), and I guess Elle would be pretty awesome too! (but if I could only ever be in this Musical once and I had to choose a part it'd be Margot)
Eponine, Les Miserables
Heidi, Title of Show
Millie, Thoroughly Modern Millie
And there are many more but as of right now I am being kicked out of the Institute building which is the only place I currently have Internet access because my apartment is attempting to install new Internet routers, so this is where I will end for tonight.
I know that you all ready know how much I love you, but there are times when I am so overwhelmed by how important you are to me that I have to type it out in a blog post to publish on the Internet for eternity . . . so here goes: Dear Mom, Thank you so much for everything you have done for me throughout these past 20 years. You have taught me so much and helped me through so much. Thank you for being such an amazing example and teaching me how to be a good person. Watching you raise each one of us (especially Sarah) has taught me what it truly means to be an amazing mom. I hope that someday I will be able to raise my children the way you raised Taylor, Sarah, Anna and I. The patience you have had with all of us is incredible. It has been through your example that I have learned how to be patient with people. Even though sometimes it's okay to say 'You suck!' and then hang up on a complete stranger, but those were special circumstances. And in regard to those special circumstances: Thank you for standing up for me when I was too scared/intimidated to stand up for myself. Even if you were also scared and intimidated (if you could have seen the guy you were talking to you would understand even more. He is massive!) I know you hate confrontation just as much as I do so thank you for struggling through it with me. Also thank you for being the kind of mother I can talk to and confide in. I know that if I have problems I can talk to you about them; whether they are school troubles, friend falling outs, spiritual walls, or boy drama. You are always willing to help and always have great advice. It breaks my heart when I hear other girls complain about how annoying their mom's are or how embarrassing it is to be with them. I feel so bad that they don't have a wonderful mom like I do! Thank you for being the cool mom who's fun to hang out with!
I also hope you know how much it means to me that I was raised in an active LDS home. You and dad have been such magnificent examples for all of us kids. I am so grateful that you were sealed in the temple and that I was born under that promise and that I will have the opportunity to spend eternity with this amazing family. I love you so much! And the worst part about going back to SUU is that I can't come home every weekend to see you. Well . . . I suppose I could but that would be a lot of gas money. Anyway I just want you to know how much you mean to me and how happy I am that you are my mother. I miss you whenever I'm away and hopefully I get into a lot of shows this year so you have an excuse to come to Cedar more often! And even then I'll be coming home as much as I can to see you. I love you to the moon and back again and a million red M&M's! Love from your daughter, Amanda.
Sometimes I fantasize about how I wish my life was instead of how it is. Not that I have a bad life, because I in fact have a great life! There are just things that I would love to make improvements on.
The first thing I would change is my job. Now I don't have a bad or boring job, I actually really like the people I work with, I just don't particularly like working. So instead I would get paid to read and work out, because then I would be super motivated to exercise so I'd probably be super fit. And I'd also be rich by now because I read all the time!
Second I would want to be able to recharge myself like a phone or a computer. Just plug myself into a wall while working on homework or watching a movie and then I'd be completely recharged. No need for sleep which would give me more hours in a day (alright, technically I know it wouldn't literally give me more hours in a day because that's impossible but it would give me more awake hours in a day) so that I could accomplish more. I still absolutely love sleeping though so I would also still be able to choose the pleasure of actually sleeping if I wanted to. It would just be really nice to not have to sleep sometimes, especially during finals week or homework all nighters. Or even just to stay up and play with friends all night.
Also teleportation! If I could teleport my life would be amazing! I could come home to visit my parents anytime I wanted, or go visit my friends during the summer. Plus I could travel anywhere for free! I could go to Rome and walk around the Pantheon anytime I wanted. And I could go to Amsterdam, Paris, China, Italy, Taiwan, Australia, Tokyo, London, and obviously New York City whenever I felt like it. Plus if I was like Nightcrawler then I could teleport people with me so I could bring people on my many adventures!
Next I would love it if I had my own personal chef. His name would be Chef Chef and he would cook all of my meals for me and they would taste absolutely delicious, have perfect portion control, and be ready whenever I became hungry. He would also be able to tell beforehand whether I was craving Mexican, Italian, or American food (or whatever other food I might crave) and he would have that food craving prepared. Also he would be a robot so I wouldn't have to pay him and I also wouldn't feel guilty about having someone cook all my meals for me.
Fifth I would have a motorcycle. Even though I would be capable of teleporting in this perfect world I would still like to have a mode of transportation and I would want that mode of transportation to be a motorcycle, a Honda Rebel to be exact. It's smaller with the seat lower to the ground, which would be perfect for my 5'3" height. It's also low weight compared to a ton of other motorcycles, which would be perfect for my small frame. And it also doesn't have a ton of power behind it, which means being a very small person I would actually be able to control it! (Daddy if you're reading this you can clearly see that I've been doing my homework on motorcycle's and maybe someday you will maybe possibly let me get a Honda Rebel... maybe.)
Next on my list of perfect world stuff I would make it so sickness and brokenness never occur. Because then you would never have to cancel any fun plans because you were vomiting, or you would never have to worry about understudies maliciously pushing you down a flight of stairs and breaking your legs because you're legs would be unbreakable!
I would also want to be able to read people like open books. Mostly because I am absolutely horrible at getting a read on people, and I'm never entirely sure of people's intentions and it would just be really great to be able to know that right up front. Also it would just be great to always know when people are lying to me!
Eighth (for those of you keeping track) bacon would be healthy.
Now for some girly things: Shopping would be easier! I would be able to find everything I could ever want in my size in one cheap store. Instead of reality where every time I go shopping I only find a couple things I like and approximately 67 things I would never wear and those couple things I do like aren't as cheap as I would like them to be. Also decorating would be as simple as searching the Internet for the definition to incorrigible. I would simply be able to type in some letters and then have a super cute decorated college room instead of having to take the time to go to stores and pick out different things and find different inspiring quotes or print out different pictures to paste onto cute boards with cute ribbons or whatever. Decorating is hard! It would also be nice to never need makeup. I hardly ever wear makeup anyway and it would just be so nice to have super long luscious eyelashes without having to glob on mascara. And it'd be great to always have shiny pink lips without needed lip gloss or lipstick.
And now for a list of theatre related perfections I want: 1. Life would be like a musical
"Go away you threaten me!"
2. My hair would be capable of growing at will so I could keep my wonderful short hair when I wasn't in shows but I would be able to grow it out overnight for any auditions or parts that I was cast in.
3. I would be capable of dancing like every person who has ever been in the top 20 of So You Think You Can Dance
4. I would have the range and be capable of singing like Barbara Streisand.
And so far that is my perfect world. I'm sure if I sat here long enough I could come up with a ton of things to add, but this should be good for now.
