A conversation between me and my blog:
Blog: "Hey... remember me? Yeah... I'm still here."
Me: "Wow, you are. Sorry about that man..."
Blog: "Oh it's cool..."
Me: "Yeah, okay..."
I've recently realized that there are only a handful of people that read my blog posts that I don't put on facebook. So naturally this would be a fantastic place to rant, right?
So here goes:
Dear "Just give it time..."
I am, and I'm willing to give you as much time as you need. I know you think that I just want to instantly jump into a relationship with you because of what happened between us at the end of last semester, but that's not true. And I don't know how to convince you of that! I wasn't lying when I told you that I value your friendship more than I want a relationship with you. If you want us to just stay friends I would be totally fine with that! And I also understand how you seem to be having a hard time believing that because when most people say that exact phrase they don't mean it. They may say it but they all hope that friendship will eventually lead to something else, but that's not how I am!
Okay, scratch that, sometimes I am like that. I will fully admit that I have said being just friends with a guy is totally fine with me while secretly hope one day he'll want more from me. But this is one of those rare cases where I really do value your friendship more! As attractive and amazing you are, and despite how much I really do want to date you, I would rather stay friends with you than risk ruining the first really good friendship I've really ever had with a guy. Now moving on...
I think you are one of the most interesting and fun people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting and despite all the retarded rumors I keep hearing about you I still think you are a great guy! So in response to your "Just give it time..." I would like to say "I am, and I apologize for my constant flirting but that is simply how I talk to attractive men. It's really hard to control." But seriously, I am going to give it time because I respect you as a person and I realize that you have been hurt before, and I understand that because I've been hurt too. I can see that you have a lot of walls built up around your feelings and some of them are for the sake of others, not just yourself. I promise that I won't take offense and anything you might have to say to me (that is unless you think I'm one of the most ugly and stupid people you've ever met... I think I might take offense at that) so please just be honest with me! That's really all I want.